Peaceful Hurricanes and Chaotic Stillness

Some days things “just” happen. Good and bad, big and small, important and not so much.. Some days one minute we laugh and cannot contain our joy in our physical bodies and another we feel below the sea level. On such days peacefulness is threatened by the most hazardous chaos and emotional hurricanes elevate to never before seen (and probably felt) levels. I am sure you have gone through this a significant number of times.

I would like to share my observations what works when hurricanes take over and chaotic stillness becomes annoying. I will share only 3 very simple possible steps you can take (there are so many more of them!) to change the situation. Start with these 3 steps as, I believe, they are the foundation of all the other ones that are in between:

1. Calm down. It might sound a little bit way too simple but stop doing whatever you are doing, put aside everything, walk away from your computer and find a peaceful place where you can come back to your body and your peaceful mind. One of the possible things to do is to make yourself a cup of tea and while drinking it concentrate and think only about the tea, the smell, the flavor, observe the color and texture of it. Let it be all about the cup of tea. Let all the thoughts and worries slide away. Find something what you enjoy and what takes 2-5 minutes out of your busy day. Enjoy the moment and observe every millisecond  of your peaceful return to pure happiness filled Earth. Try this!

2. Remember and decide what is important to you, deep in your heart, not in your brain. There are days when too many things happen at the same time and we lose a grip of what is important to us and what our priorities are. Don’t take the path that puts everybody’s responsibilities and faults on you. More


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Happy Holidays ~

Another year is on the verge of changes, new beginnings, happy endings, new romances for single and more mutual understanding for coupled ones.

Christmas is just around the corner and although this has been not so great year on Wall Street and Santa is on a budget, it will still be merry and happy Christmas for all – small and big. Be nice to each other, listen to each other, don’t take anything for granted and enjoy the happy spirits of this festive holiday season ~

Much Love,


Facebook Love ~

The posts/comments like the one bellow always make me smile –


A Land of Your Own Creation

Few weeks ago my very dear friend invited me to join her on a personal journey and introduced me to the various landscapes of her Land. I got to see the darkest corners and the shadows of shame and guilt. I felt how a very heavy secret feels and fell in Love with her even more. Be inspired to create your own Land, change and adjust the landscape so that you get more Sun than Rain, more laughter than sadness, more freedom than shame and guilt.. Breathe in deeply and read slowly ~

I have an eating disorder. I’ve been struggling with it for 11 years and I honestly don’t know when I will get better. At first, it was anorexia. The school was hell and home was a war zone, so feeling hungry seemed better than feeling nothing.

Now it’s overeating. I am empty inside so I fill it with food. As one lady said, “it’s like a hug from inside.”
I don’t have a life but I have extra 10 pounds round my waist. I don’t have a boyfriend but I have a cake. I don’t have time for friends but I have 24 hours for eating. I don’t travel to beautiful places abroad but I have my daily trips to Kiwi. I don’t have delicious dinners but I consume thousands and thousands of kcal of food that makes me sick. I don’t exercise, I just move to burn the late night snacks. I don’t socialize nor go out because I’m too busy chewing.

All I am is a girl with ED. All I feel is shame and guilt. All i want is to be free. And all I need is to be loved. I am at a crossroad now. The outside of my life is going well and I am afraid of screwing it up by not getting better. I have to make a choice that all junkies face sooner or later. The question is, will i choose life, or ED?“

Be Inspired~

I find it interesting sometimes how much I know and how less I can actually verbally say. Not because I wouldn’t want to but because the things I know are beyond verbal language and have no physical expressions or symbols. I find myself not once during a day building bridges out of compassion and self-sufficient love bricks between people I know and total strangers. Like a curious 3 year old I look for various “signatures” in people’s eyes and I feel emotionally weightless when a healthy energy reaches me and I align with the sender letting the Magic happen between us.. Those are the moments I cherish no matter how long they last. These are the seconds and milliseconds that encourage me to get rid of the facade that provides me with a false strength and self-image that I have to defend from attacks, real and imagined.

Instead, –

I choose a real change and attitude that there is nothing to defend and nothing to protect. Be inspired to join me.

Physics and Other Romantic Complications

Almost a month ago I had a very beautiful experience. While walking home at embarrassingly late hours on a Saturday night I decided to click the “shuffle” button on my iPod, that I very rarely do and discovered a new song that had a message for me.. First chords didn’t say much and then, magic happened…. I slowed down and was breathing the music together with cold October air deep into my lungs and heart, trying not to miss any single particle of air and any piece of sound. I tried to get as much of them as I could. My usual 5 minute walk home became a rejuvenating multi-surface travel within myself. It was Romance and Love among Me, Night and Music. Something similar to the feeling when you realize that you are wholeness and there is no separate self, when you create intentions and physical body helps you carry them out.

Today another magical thing happened. The message from the song reached me in a different medium. And I traveled again… Physical well-known places became romantic compilations and the irritating 42nd street noise became like a sweet Love whisper in my ear. People became little unique planets with their own beautiful stories and I couldn’t let this moment pass so I stopped like an annoying 42nd street tourist for a moment in the middle of a busy sidewalk –

and smiled with my heart.

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