Peaceful Hurricanes and Chaotic Stillness

Some days things “just” happen. Good and bad, big and small, important and not so much.. Some days one minute we laugh and cannot contain our joy in our physical bodies and another we feel below the sea level. On such days peacefulness is threatened by the most hazardous chaos and emotional hurricanes elevate to never before seen (and probably felt) levels. I am sure you have gone through this a significant number of times.

I would like to share my observations what works when hurricanes take over and chaotic stillness becomes annoying. I will share only 3 very simple possible steps you can take (there are so many more of them!) to change the situation. Start with these 3 steps as, I believe, they are the foundation of all the other ones that are in between:

1. Calm down. It might sound a little bit way too simple but stop doing whatever you are doing, put aside everything, walk away from your computer and find a peaceful place where you can come back to your body and your peaceful mind. One of the possible things to do is to make yourself a cup of tea and while drinking it concentrate and think only about the tea, the smell, the flavor, observe the color and texture of it. Let it be all about the cup of tea. Let all the thoughts and worries slide away. Find something what you enjoy and what takes 2-5 minutes out of your busy day. Enjoy the moment and observe every millisecond  of your peaceful return to pure happiness filled Earth. Try this!

2. Remember and decide what is important to you, deep in your heart, not in your brain. There are days when too many things happen at the same time and we lose a grip of what is important to us and what our priorities are. Don’t take the path that puts everybody’s responsibilities and faults on you. More

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Purple and Other Nuances

I have been a bad bad “mama” for my Geographic Delight blog. Not on purpose. There were so many things on my plate that I ran out of energy to take care of my Geographic Delight baby..

My main concentration and writing for personal purposes happens on my personal website www.ievute.com. Visit me there and say “hi.” I also have been spending more time biking and making things for friends, Christmas and myself. One of my projects, how to make recycled envelopes from paper grocery bags, can be found here. I also opened Etsy shop and was/am trying to organize things as much as possible.

Oh, and how could I forget, from the last time I checked in here, I changed my hair color twice. I am brunette now. I was purple/pink in between..

HOW TO: own your choice

I am sure you, like me, numerous times have been in multiple situations when you had to choose and when all choices were meaningful even after the most precise thoughtful weighting you have done. I am sure you were not once puzzled and confused – what to choose?

Lately I ran into people who didn’t know much about personal boundaries and where business and personal spaces meet. People who decided to be deceitful instead of transparent. I took part in situations when I chose to ignore things that bothered me and situations when I stepped up and stood up for the things and people that mattered to me at that particular time.

Life is full of choices. It is almost like a jigsaw puzzle when the whole experience of a day or a particular moment is constructed of smaller pieces that if matched correctly produce a beautiful picture that is rewarding at the end (of a day). Everything we do is a choice. Our choice. Getting up at 7:30 am instead of 7 am. Getting a medium coffee instead of small latte at a local coffee shop on the way to work. We choose how hard to work, when to rest, who to talk to, whose emails to respond to first and so on. The list of the choices we make throughout the day is infinite and none of the lists are exact and the same.

My biggest concern has always been how to make the right choice. The truth is, there is no right or wrong as long as you feel good about your choice. It shouldn’t matter what others think and what they say; you made the choice for yourself and not for them. Trust yourself that if you honestly thought through and if deep in your heart  you feel good about your choice then it was the right choice at that particular moment. It doesn’t mean that you will have to make the same choice the next time you run into the same situation. That is the beauty of the moment – nothing repeats twice and it is never the same.

Own your choice and be proud of yourself.

Invest time to say sorry and communicate to people if it was an unpleasant situation and somebody had to be let down. Treat others you would like to be treated and remember, what goes around, comes around. Be generous, helpful and honest. Say what you mean and give as much as you can. Own your choices and feelings. Even the feelings like guilt and shame.

I would be happy to hear more insights about choices (possible and already made) from my readers!

Falling Into Ourselves

‎”I accept my uniqueness. There is no competition and no comparison, for we are all different and meant to be that way. I am special and wonderful. I love myself.” -Louise L. Hay once said.

It took me so long to get close to the meaning of the “feeling special and loving myself”. There was always somebody better, something else to work on, something else to achieve or to compete with for the being “the best” and “perfect” title… It was never enough what I did and always could have been done better…

Only recently I started feeling at ease and gave myself a permission to sit down and relax. I even managed to give control to other people and trusted that everything will be fine..

I found out that the world didn’t stop with me watching it from aside. My trust created situations that worked best for me and for the first time in my life I felt I was perfect and the best I could be right here and now – doing what I do – whatever it is – managing 4 projects at a time and doing exceptional work or coming to a meeting with no agenda..

A Land of Your Own Creation

Few weeks ago my very dear friend invited me to join her on a personal journey and introduced me to the various landscapes of her Land. I got to see the darkest corners and the shadows of shame and guilt. I felt how a very heavy secret feels and fell in Love with her even more. Be inspired to create your own Land, change and adjust the landscape so that you get more Sun than Rain, more laughter than sadness, more freedom than shame and guilt.. Breathe in deeply and read slowly ~


I have an eating disorder. I’ve been struggling with it for 11 years and I honestly don’t know when I will get better. At first, it was anorexia. The school was hell and home was a war zone, so feeling hungry seemed better than feeling nothing.

Now it’s overeating. I am empty inside so I fill it with food. As one lady said, “it’s like a hug from inside.”
I don’t have a life but I have extra 10 pounds round my waist. I don’t have a boyfriend but I have a cake. I don’t have time for friends but I have 24 hours for eating. I don’t travel to beautiful places abroad but I have my daily trips to Kiwi. I don’t have delicious dinners but I consume thousands and thousands of kcal of food that makes me sick. I don’t exercise, I just move to burn the late night snacks. I don’t socialize nor go out because I’m too busy chewing.

All I am is a girl with ED. All I feel is shame and guilt. All i want is to be free. And all I need is to be loved. I am at a crossroad now. The outside of my life is going well and I am afraid of screwing it up by not getting better. I have to make a choice that all junkies face sooner or later. The question is, will i choose life, or ED?“

Be Inspired~

I find it interesting sometimes how much I know and how less I can actually verbally say. Not because I wouldn’t want to but because the things I know are beyond verbal language and have no physical expressions or symbols. I find myself not once during a day building bridges out of compassion and self-sufficient love bricks between people I know and total strangers. Like a curious 3 year old I look for various “signatures” in people’s eyes and I feel emotionally weightless when a healthy energy reaches me and I align with the sender letting the Magic happen between us.. Those are the moments I cherish no matter how long they last. These are the seconds and milliseconds that encourage me to get rid of the facade that provides me with a false strength and self-image that I have to defend from attacks, real and imagined.

Instead, –

I choose a real change and attitude that there is nothing to defend and nothing to protect. Be inspired to join me.


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